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lestat de lioncourt. ([personal profile] damnedest) wrote2024-07-27 03:00 pm
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[personal profile] followups 2024-10-19 04:17 am (UTC)(link)
'You scared the shit out of me and I'm still processing everything,' is all Daniel can offer Louis. He hopes it sounds sincere, because it is.

He doesn't want to talk about it. Doesn't know what he'll say. History informs him that he will fuck up talking about it badly and cause an argument. Not a fun one that he and Louis can spar over, but the kind that explain why he's never had a real relationship or even long-term friendship work out.

(Bonding topics, twice divorced, yeah yeah, sure, but none of Daniel's exes are here, or down the street, yearning.)

"Did it hurt? How long do you think it lasted?"

Don't look at him like that, Blondie, YOU'RE the one that wanted the sleepover.

"Could be anesthesia, muscle blocker type surgical drug, or a compound made from something like snake venom. Either way I don't know what the fuck a single syringe was supposed to do. Good thing she wasn't smarter."
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[personal profile] divorcing 2024-10-19 04:30 am (UTC)(link)
Talk to me, doesn't care about the possibility of an argument. I'm not a stranger.

Words borrowed from Daniel, murmured between them.

Aloud, looking between Lestat's expression and Daniel, Louis senses this isn't exactly what Lestat had been hoping for.

Louis does give it consideration, these questions. The promises he'd made to Lestat, to say the hard things. To try.

"It hurt because she made it hurt. Her gift."

Which matters not at all now, because she is dead and gone.

"I don't think she was gambling. I think she expected it to hold," Louis says, hands folding in his lap. Hooking a leg up, ankle balancing on his knee. "Maybe our mutual friend will have found some trace of the syringe or it's case in the wreck."

Since apparently Rashid is just around now.
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[personal profile] followups 2024-10-19 05:38 am (UTC)(link)
"Yeah, that's what happened."

>:(

"For the record, if somebody ever threatens me again— that's a whatever, because first of all, she wasn't even on the podium for the scariest vampires who've ever tried to kill me,"

this is an affectionate joke, believe it or not

"Nothing happened to me. Watching you two go through any of that is what sucked. And— look, I'm not saying I don't want to talk about it ever," and now he is looking directly at Louis, not bothering to use telepathy. "I just need a minute. Is this what you guys wanted to talk about, in there?"

Like what is going on, fellas.
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[personal profile] divorcing 2024-10-19 05:58 am (UTC)(link)
An affectionate joke that does an excellent job of reminding Louis of his breathtaking failures at protecting Daniel in the past.

Has to take a moment, wait out the nettled, defensive feeling that rises in the wake of their twined focus, Daniel's realignment. To silently double-down on a chosen course of action, a promise to himself that anyone threatening Daniel will need to die. No more trading on uncertainties.

"We don't have to talk," is only slightly clipped. But it's true, no one has to talk. Lestat hadn't assembled them out here for that. Louis is very aware of the drive behind this assembly, the fearful thing in Lestat that is soothed only by having everyone near to hand.
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[personal profile] followups 2024-10-19 06:22 am (UTC)(link)
"Sure."

Brittle, yet trying.

What did Lestat think was going to happen! Besides arguing! This is what happens when you put people into a room! Daniel takes a breath and thinks like, sure, he can let this go, probably, that's what he wanted to do, right, he's just going to go to "sleep" and lay there and go insane until night rolls around again, and—

'You clearly WANT to talk. Or want me to.'

Echo of an echo, I'm not a stranger. Sneaky but fair, he has to concede.
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[personal profile] divorcing 2024-10-19 06:42 am (UTC)(link)
"I am grateful," a point of correction. Clipping the tailend of Daniel's sure, but otherwise smoothly delivered. "It doesn't keep me from being sorry for what happened."

In which "what happened" is Lestat being clawed and bitten in the process of intervening.

Slow-growing awareness of his own temper, warming as Daniel says this thing to him. Of feeling something beyond nettled, veering towards affronted. His gaze slants to Daniel, leaving Lestat's prone form in coffin. Expression imperceptible as he looks back at his friend, and weighs this.

Has a cruel thing caught in his mouth. The beat of quiet is for the sole purpose of biing down on it, crushing the urge to say it into check.

I'm not a stranger, Louis repeats. I thought that meant something.

Is it only Louis' task to crack open his chest, let all the mess of his emotions spill out to be inspected and reformed?

Aloud: "We can leave it for tonight."

Unhooks ankle from knee, makes to stand.
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[personal profile] followups 2024-10-19 07:04 am (UTC)(link)
wE CaN LeAvE iT fOr toNIgHt.

For a long (?) stretch of silence, it seems like maybe they can. Daniel even just sits there, and gets his phone out, and looks at the message, returns one. Stares at it, puts his phone away again—

'Yeah, the 'something' it means is that I am completely fucked up over you doing that because someone threatened me. My fucking fault that you got drugged and tortured. You walked away with some deranged psychopath after you just got your life back.'

And Daniel did vampire murder, and didn't hesitate because it was Louis, and isn't going to complain about the psychological reeling because it was for Louis. Louis, who didn't want to publish the book, who wants to get into a fight, who went and got tortured because some idiot made a threat that they had no reason to believe was even viable.
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[personal profile] divorcing 2024-10-19 07:34 am (UTC)(link)
Two feet on the floor, stalled from further motion by Daniel's unexpected rejoinder.

A pause, Louis turning to look Daniel full in the face. He can hear just the barest hint of Lestat's chosen playlist. Insurmountable, for the immediate moment. Whatever complicated thing Louis' face does as he considers Lestat walling himself off with his Spotify account—

Well, something for the future.

In the present moment, Louis reaches to touch Daniel's face, cup his cheek. Feels the breadth of this thing he cannot say, because it is too much. Overwhelming. Words locked in his body because they mean everything. But some of it is there, as Louis' expression softens. As he touches Daniel's mind and this thing ebbs in alongside his reply.

You gave me my life back.

By completely demolishing his old one, but—

It's not your fault, what happened.

"We can talk tomorrow," Louis offers. Disinclined to let any part of this go, but more willing to give Daniel a day to process now that Daniel's cracked the door open. Comfortable with something near to a decided upon point for a future conversation. Louis had gotten a full night after Armand had sent a bomb into their room to make a point. It's fair.
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[personal profile] followups 2024-10-19 08:05 am (UTC)(link)
Takes a second to change gears again after deciding, alright fine, if Louis wants to be mean and get into an argument about it, let's fucking get into an argument about it— probably obvious on Daniel's face, telepathy or not, as Louis leans in to touch him. They've said plenty of awful shit to each other, why not more, when it means the most?

—distracted, by the coffin lid shutting.

Imagines the neon sign over the flat surface, You Two Are Being Annoying.

"Are you sure screaming about it wouldn't make us both feel better?"

This, too, is affectionate. Daniel sighs and stands up, so he can just give Louis a hug. Fuck all of this, alright, he just cares about him.
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[personal profile] divorcing 2024-10-20 08:37 am (UTC)(link)
An embrace, unexpected.

Maybe screaming about it would be easier. A lancing of all the stress Louis knows they are all three feeling. But instead, there is this.

Daniel puts arms around him. Louis breathes out. Leans into him, holds on. Tucks his face in against the bend of Daniel's neck and stays there a moment, eyes closed.

He doesn't regret any part of what he did. What he risked. Doesn't risk the toll it's taken on him, what has been staved off by a little blood and will be managed by rest after.

The argument they aren't having is still swirling in the air. Not gone, but staved off. (Maybe.) Lestat's coffin, closing. (The tightening in Louis' chest to observe it.) Daylight rising outside the window. They'll leave soon. Louis is alright.

He makes himself be the one to straighten first from the embrace.

"You can scream at me tomorrow."

Putting a pin in this.

"It's late now. You need sleep."

Growing fledglings, etc.
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[personal profile] followups 2024-10-20 10:11 am (UTC)(link)
Unless Louis wants to try very hard to reignite it tomorrow, it's probably defused— Daniel didn't want to talk anyway, he'll shelve it, compartmentalize, move on. Who knows what move on will entail. Maybe find a new game plan, maybe nothing. Tomorrow is a new night.

"Yeah, yeah." Fine!! "Goodnight, Louis. You too, Blondie."

Sulking but not forgotten.

Bedtime. Sure. He can pretend. Daniel does a last sweep to make sure he has the right phone charging brick (and to double-check curtains and screens), and then closes himself away in his coffin, sufficiently cowed into giving up the appearance of anything else, today. Into the casket, and the daytime world of anxiety texting, since he's never actually going to be able to get any fucking sleep.
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[personal profile] divorcing 2024-10-20 02:01 pm (UTC)(link)
Lucky for Louis, he had just had a whole tutorial by the very famous Daniel Molloy about how to discuss topics people would rather ignore.

But that's for sundown.

In the present moment, Louis drums fingers so softly along the top of Lestat's coffin as Daniel makes his rounds. Watches him, expression soft. All things are complicated, yes, but not so complicated that Louis is not endlessly pleased with Daniel's presence, his survival.

When Daniel is securely within his coffin, Louis' fingers lift away from Lestat's.

And he goes, quietly, as promised into his own.

"Good night," softly into the dark of the room, before drawing the lid down over himself.
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[personal profile] divorcing 2024-10-20 10:02 pm (UTC)(link)
No, not asleep.

Drowsing, but not asleep. Taking quiet stock of his body, the aches and pains that have been dulled but not erased by cups and cups of borrowed blood. Thinking ahead to Vermont. To what he should say tomorrow to Daniel. What he should say to Lestat, if Lestat were still sulking when evening fell.

Then, a tapping.

A disorienting moment, trying to place the sound. Trying to decide whether or not he's dreaming.

The lid cracks open. Louis peers out, catching sight of Lestat's chest, then pushes the lid farther, opening wider to look up into his face.

"Hello," and then, worried, "Has something happened?"
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[personal profile] divorcing 2024-10-20 11:04 pm (UTC)(link)
The lid is pushed all the way up and back, securely affixed with no immediate possibility of closing. Louis leans himself along the edge beside Lestat's fingers, arms crossed so he might rest his chin. Welcoming further conversation, for the moment.

A softening of Louis' expression at this given reason.

"Is it not helping as you thought to have us all here?"
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[personal profile] divorcing 2024-10-20 11:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Yes, that has always been so. For him, for Louis. Sleep has come easier always when they shared a coffin. Louis' nightmares fewer and farther between when Lestat was tangled around him, a tangible ward against the worst of what lived in Louis' head back then.

Louis shifts, freeing a hand to touch Lestat. A well-worn bit of intimacy, his hand cupping Lestat's cheek, thumb at the corner of his mouth.

"You retrieved me. I was never in any danger."

No need to betray any deeper thoughts on the matter. Whether Louis wished they'd both stayed behind, left him to manage the after effects of his challenge on his own. Lestat had come. Louis was reclaimed. They were safe, all three of them.

"Come here," is invitation against whatever rebuttal Lestat surely has. Draws him down towards the utilitarian confines of Louis' storage crate. Well-cushioned but hardly luxurious, open to Lestat if he pleases.
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[personal profile] divorcing 2024-10-21 02:42 am (UTC)(link)
No pretense of restraint tonight, apparently.

Louis isn't objecting. Like Daniel's embrace, Louis yields into this entanglement, transparent in the comfort taken from the contact. Breathes out as Lestat settles himself just so, reaching up past him to hook the handle and draw the lid closed over them. Lestat can certainly leave if he pleases, but no expectation from Louis that he expects Lestat to relocate, that he sees this as temporary.

His thumb runs along Lestat's cheek once more.

"Inviting you in?"

Not what he's being asked. Louis knows. Is reasonably sure Lestat won't find the joke charming.

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