Unexpected, this flash of—resentment? Perhaps that. Something bitter, rising, fangs out. That Louis can abandon him for long decades, and then one day step into his life, declare his punishment over, and say, you're free, Lestat, find happiness, as he waltzes back out of it.
Ducks his head as they walk, bracing against it. Abjures it somewhere. Those fans of the book (the human kind, not the vampiric) might say, shouldn't Lestat be snarling and snapping by now? Throwing a tantrum, perhaps. He thinks it was not emphasised enough how much bullshit he became practiced at swallowing, actually, all the time, skipping years to each instance where something finally gave.
Louis' grip on his arm is tight. He is wishing good things for him. Affection persists, after all this time. For that, he can be grateful, can't he?
"I should," he agrees. "But I am choosing to start small, mm? You should encourage this behaviour."
I should, Lestat says, and Louis aches. Aches and aches for the thought of Lestat, happy, somewhere in the world without him. Ugly and selfish, this feeling. Louis pushes it away, sequestered away with Armand's steadily delivered—
Accusation is not the right word. Armand had simply said all these things to Louis, and now Louis must carry them alongside all the rest.
"I am encouraging," Louis relents. "Just like you encouraging me to spend a lot of film while we're together."
Will Louis find happiness in that? Unclear. But he likes the bargain they've struck, likes the promise of Lestat singing for him.
Does something to skitter aside more complicated feelings, replaced with the satisfaction that he has managed to gift Louis something once again, that it has been received. Under duress, one might say, but Lestat would tell that one that getting Louis to do anything he exclusively doesn't wish to do is impossible. And the blood, first, not just the camera.
Louis who must feel better now because of him. So, he lets himself be pleased, laugh, believe this night to be a good one when the last was so horrible.
"Then when I am America's most famous rockstar and you are filling galleries with your photographs, we will know it was each other's doing."
And he thinks of Claudia. Claudia, sitting across the table from him snapping his picture. Claudia, jabbing him with her toes as he strung up clotheslines for his photos. Claudia, eyes bright alongside him at the table while he told her about art, about his art.
Painful, still. But Louis can feel it. Remember it.
Here and now, Louis catches Lestat's wrist, undoing the link of their arms to draw Lestat to a sudden halt. Just long enough to press a brief kiss to his cheek, grip tight. A silent expression of something too big for Louis to say, something he hasn't fully named.
"Then come on back with me, and give me that song," Louis tells him, drawing back. Returning to what they have determined to be polite stasis. "Let me start my encouragement early, before we gotta start driving."
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Ducks his head as they walk, bracing against it. Abjures it somewhere. Those fans of the book (the human kind, not the vampiric) might say, shouldn't Lestat be snarling and snapping by now? Throwing a tantrum, perhaps. He thinks it was not emphasised enough how much bullshit he became practiced at swallowing, actually, all the time, skipping years to each instance where something finally gave.
Louis' grip on his arm is tight. He is wishing good things for him. Affection persists, after all this time. For that, he can be grateful, can't he?
"I should," he agrees. "But I am choosing to start small, mm? You should encourage this behaviour."
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Accusation is not the right word. Armand had simply said all these things to Louis, and now Louis must carry them alongside all the rest.
"I am encouraging," Louis relents. "Just like you encouraging me to spend a lot of film while we're together."
Will Louis find happiness in that? Unclear. But he likes the bargain they've struck, likes the promise of Lestat singing for him.
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Does something to skitter aside more complicated feelings, replaced with the satisfaction that he has managed to gift Louis something once again, that it has been received. Under duress, one might say, but Lestat would tell that one that getting Louis to do anything he exclusively doesn't wish to do is impossible. And the blood, first, not just the camera.
Louis who must feel better now because of him. So, he lets himself be pleased, laugh, believe this night to be a good one when the last was so horrible.
"Then when I am America's most famous rockstar and you are filling galleries with your photographs, we will know it was each other's doing."
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And he thinks of Claudia. Claudia, sitting across the table from him snapping his picture. Claudia, jabbing him with her toes as he strung up clotheslines for his photos. Claudia, eyes bright alongside him at the table while he told her about art, about his art.
Painful, still. But Louis can feel it. Remember it.
Here and now, Louis catches Lestat's wrist, undoing the link of their arms to draw Lestat to a sudden halt. Just long enough to press a brief kiss to his cheek, grip tight. A silent expression of something too big for Louis to say, something he hasn't fully named.
"Then come on back with me, and give me that song," Louis tells him, drawing back. Returning to what they have determined to be polite stasis. "Let me start my encouragement early, before we gotta start driving."