Louis doesn't break it. As long as they are quiet together, Louis can be doing this. Touching his hair. Holding him across his thighs. Lestat can stay close and they can leave the most complicated aspects of that closeness outside the door.
Yes, Louis had come because he had been worried. They hadn't had to find out if Louis were strong enough to stay away for any extended period of time. Maybe Louis will struggle with that tomorrow, the day after. Right now, it is only simple fact: Louis worried for him.
"So do I."
Say nothing of how Louis had passed the time after their fight.
Finally, Lestat eases to kneel up, still with an arm draped across Louis' thighs, and slow enough not to disrupt, too much, the way Louis is touching him. Bloodshot eyes now come across as sleeper rather than manic, a soft fondness to the way he looks up at him.
"Perhaps after Tennessee," he says, "there will be time for hunting."
The drape of him, half in the tub, half across Louis' lap, is a minor reminder of what they're meant to be doing. Washing the concert off Lestat. Winding their way towards sleep after a fraught night.
Lestat tips his face up and Louis cups his cheek. Thumbs over the familiar scar at the corner of his mouth once more.
"I don't ever want you to be hungry," Louis says quietly. "Don't wanna hear you're denying yourself."
Is it too long to wait, this maybe hunt after Tennessee? (Is it rich of Louis to lever this, after long years together in which Lestat begged and raged trying to get Louis to eat?)
"You promise me you're gonna eat, and I'll eat too."
This too, fraught. Louis struggling, unmoored from long decades of ascetic ritual and trying to find what is comfortable, what is good, in this new future he has found for himself.
It's how this conversation begun, Lestat inquiring after Louis' habits. The book had described his anger and frustration for Louis' declining to feed himself, and detailed less precisely how maddening he found it to be, how worried it made him, how upsetting it was to stand by, to allow to occur. It is a book from one perspective, he knows.
He is not even aiming to assert these experiences when it comes time for his interview, not really. But he thinks of it now, a flicker, sees it reflected back at him.
"I promise," Lestat says. Head tipping into that touch to his face, the claim is makes. "And you promise me back."
Lestat closes his eyes under the kiss, under the gentle contact of their foreheads pressing together, the brush of their noses. There is no one he has been with, no one Louis has been jealous of, that he would share these little moments with, these sweeter intimacies. It is for Louis alone, and always will be.
So it is upsetting to think he may never have it again, but, they've made promises tonight. Louis has said he will come back for him. Lestat will hold him to it.
Still, Louis lingers. They breathe together. Their pulse beats together.
And outside are legions of fans clamoring for Lestat, and an entire slew of vampires that wish for Louis' blood, and all the wreckage of the past they have not quite sorted through. Little and less incentive to break apart.
Still.
Louis offers, "You want me to leave you to it?"
The tub, the array of little soaps and shampoos. The task of washing away the evening's work.
Unearned (or dangerous) intimacies. Louis has little claim to them.
Hush, still, but now a smile in his tone, and now shifting backwards, sinking lower, so that they can make eye contact. "But I think you should."
He hopes Louis can catch his meaning. How much he would like it, touching one another, sharing in it. Ushering themselves so close to the line they have drawn that they are more or less past it despite everything. He would want it to last forever. Funny, for Louis to tell him not to deny himself, and yet here they are.
Turns his head, brushing a kiss to Louis' wrist. One last little transgression.
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Louis doesn't break it. As long as they are quiet together, Louis can be doing this. Touching his hair. Holding him across his thighs. Lestat can stay close and they can leave the most complicated aspects of that closeness outside the door.
Yes, Louis had come because he had been worried. They hadn't had to find out if Louis were strong enough to stay away for any extended period of time. Maybe Louis will struggle with that tomorrow, the day after. Right now, it is only simple fact: Louis worried for him.
"So do I."
Say nothing of how Louis had passed the time after their fight.
"Will you eat again?" he asks, soft.
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Finally, Lestat eases to kneel up, still with an arm draped across Louis' thighs, and slow enough not to disrupt, too much, the way Louis is touching him. Bloodshot eyes now come across as sleeper rather than manic, a soft fondness to the way he looks up at him.
"Perhaps after Tennessee," he says, "there will be time for hunting."
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Lestat tips his face up and Louis cups his cheek. Thumbs over the familiar scar at the corner of his mouth once more.
"I don't ever want you to be hungry," Louis says quietly. "Don't wanna hear you're denying yourself."
Is it too long to wait, this maybe hunt after Tennessee? (Is it rich of Louis to lever this, after long years together in which Lestat begged and raged trying to get Louis to eat?)
"You promise me you're gonna eat, and I'll eat too."
This too, fraught. Louis struggling, unmoored from long decades of ascetic ritual and trying to find what is comfortable, what is good, in this new future he has found for himself.
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He is not even aiming to assert these experiences when it comes time for his interview, not really. But he thinks of it now, a flicker, sees it reflected back at him.
"I promise," Lestat says. Head tipping into that touch to his face, the claim is makes. "And you promise me back."
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"I promise."
Only a brief kiss. Near to chaste, as chaste as anything can ever be for them.
Louis will eat. Lestat will eat. In the midst of all the fractures and complications between them, this at least can be settled.
Lingering, forehead to forehead, nose to nose, Louis almost asks, What happened to you?
Long years, unaccounted for. What befell Lestat, in all the years he languished in his banishment and neglect?
Not tonight. Not a question for tonight.
"Okay?" Like a question, nudged to Lestat with a graze of Louis' nose to his own.
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So it is upsetting to think he may never have it again, but, they've made promises tonight. Louis has said he will come back for him. Lestat will hold him to it.
"Okay," he says, whispered even quieter. Warm.
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Still, Louis lingers. They breathe together. Their pulse beats together.
And outside are legions of fans clamoring for Lestat, and an entire slew of vampires that wish for Louis' blood, and all the wreckage of the past they have not quite sorted through. Little and less incentive to break apart.
Still.
Louis offers, "You want me to leave you to it?"
The tub, the array of little soaps and shampoos. The task of washing away the evening's work.
Unearned (or dangerous) intimacies. Louis has little claim to them.
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Hush, still, but now a smile in his tone, and now shifting backwards, sinking lower, so that they can make eye contact. "But I think you should."
He hopes Louis can catch his meaning. How much he would like it, touching one another, sharing in it. Ushering themselves so close to the line they have drawn that they are more or less past it despite everything. He would want it to last forever. Funny, for Louis to tell him not to deny himself, and yet here they are.
Turns his head, brushing a kiss to Louis' wrist. One last little transgression.
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His lips burn hot at Louis' wrist. He turns his hand, catches Lestat's lower lip with his thumb. A last small touch, a harsh exhale.
Then he stands.
"Alright."
Shades of Thank you, in it, this acceptance.
"I'll wait for you outside."
Louis has a book. He can occupy himself with more than just wishing to have stayed here, wishing to have tempted himself past tolerance.