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lestat de lioncourt. ([personal profile] damnedest) wrote2024-10-19 07:25 pm
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[personal profile] divorcing 2025-07-27 05:41 pm (UTC)(link)
This has been a fight as much as it has been an act of intimacy. Louis has been combative, Lestat has been provoking. Complicated. Reason to withhold his own reactions, diminish them, stifle the sounds Lestat would otherwise be dragging out of him if they were doing this any other way, started a different way than a needling provocation. (Than a thing they aren't talking about, Louis' side hobby, fighting vampires, this intrusion on the time they spend together.)

Lestat leaves a bite mark bleeding on his hip and Louis is moving, restless, begging with the shifting of hips and legs, his fingers curling in Lestat's hair. Gentler than he's been, still too rough by far.

"Fuck," standing in for the spill of softer things Louis might say. Pressure at the nape of Lestat's neck, encouraging push of fingers. Rude, maybe. Overstepping, maybe. Says, "Lestat," in strangled tones, ragged and insistent and encouraging.

They're making a mess. A mess of each other, of the equilibrium they'd found their way to after their last blow up. Louis knows this, but they're too far beyond any stopping point.
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[personal profile] divorcing 2025-07-27 11:43 pm (UTC)(link)
Uncomfortable to hold this position, shoulders up off the seat, hands grasping at Lestat. Appealing and ignored and all the more nettled for it.

(It is good. It is always so good.

It is as he said: the best he'd ever had.

Even like this.)

"Lestat," bitten out, bared teeth that can go nowhere and reach nothing like this. His nails digging in, pushing harder.

Lestat looks so smug. He looks wrecked. Louis' heart feels like it will shatter watching him.
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[personal profile] divorcing 2025-07-28 12:39 am (UTC)(link)
Somehow, it is unexpected. This is unexpected.

Louis had expected to be teased and needled and maybe denied. But Lestat does this instead, and Louis has a split second to watch before his muscles give out and he is sprawled again, struggling up on one elbow to keep Lestat in his eyeline.

Makes a sound, in spite of himself. Something like a moan, something like Lestat's name. Something wrecked and furious and achingly fond.

The presence of fangs is sufficient motivation to still some of Louis' struggling, the distraction of movement ebbing as Lestat works and Louis watching the slide of his mouth, the fall of his hair, the flush rising in his face and tries to remember the reasons they had for not doing this.

There are reasons. Louis knows them.

Usually.

His fingers stay caught in Lestat's hair. Pulling still, begging as Louis' breath comes in ragged pants. Unconscious desire sees his other hand set over Lestat's. Claws dig in, yes, but still. A tender link of contact as Lestat works.
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[personal profile] divorcing 2025-07-28 01:34 am (UTC)(link)
All this performance. Louis wants to put teeth into him again, bite his throat, his shoulder, lower. Maddening, how satisfied Lestat looks. Maddening and familiar and welcome.

Louis can't catch his breath. He is shivering with the effort of remaining still, the grip at his hips a reminder not to move as Lestat takes him in, fangs and all, over and over.

"Your mouth, I missed—"

Bitten off. Louis bites down so hard on his lower lip he draws blood. Keeps some other, raw thing from tumbling out of his mouth.

Frustrated admissions: I missed you. I miss you.

Past tense. Present tense. A constant state of being.
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[personal profile] divorcing 2025-07-28 02:16 am (UTC)(link)
Long years together and Lestat had withheld from Louis all the power at his disposal. He presses down harder and Louis' restless movements are stymied. Effortless, maybe. Does it cost Lestat anything? They are both older now, but Lestat still far outstrips him.

Louis can't ask. Lestat wouldn't answer.

(If they had remained together, if New Orleans had happened differently, would it have been Lestat showing Louis how to summon fire? Would he have helped cultivate that skill, or dampened it?)

A flush, caught out.

There has been no one else. There was Armand, and it is over, and it doesn't matter now. Louis doesn't burn for Armand. It was never that way with them.

Maybe the truth is laid bare by the rush of heat in his body, skin warming, fever-bright under Lestat's hands. He is touching Louis. Louis has not yet been able to buck him off. And Louis is busy, at the moment, trying to claw back the wounded sound he makes when Lestat draws off.

Scrapes himself together enough to breathe: "Generous now, about what I am and ain't saying?"
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[personal profile] divorcing 2025-07-28 03:29 am (UTC)(link)
They know each other too well.

As much as they have changed, they are still the same. The quality of their desire, the way they want each other. Lestat reading that in him still, easy. No need to touch his mind. Lestat knows Louis, all that he was and all that he is.

Easy to twist claws into each other. Easy for this too, for Lestat to unravel Louis even as he hisses and spits and snarls through the entire process.

Argument strangles in his throat as Lestat reapplies his mouth. As Louis' fingers spasm, tighten, loosen, tighten again in his hair, encouraging.

"You imagining things now?" Louis breathes out, frustrated, affectionate. Lestat has levered his weight down, harder over his thighs, but the tremors running through his body continue. Endurance fraying.
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[personal profile] divorcing 2025-07-28 04:21 am (UTC)(link)
Satisfaction, awareness of hitting a nerve. Louis can't bite him; he digs claws in any way he can.

Doesn't matter. Struggling against the inevitable. Against falling back into Lestat, when he is already caught up beneath him.

His fingers scrape along Lestat's scalp. Gives up one hand gripping Lestat's hair to fling an arm across his face. (Old habit. Shades of New Orleans.) A passing, useless attempt at hiding, masking the sounds Lestat pulls from him.

Maybe if Lestat drew off again, spoke, exchanged a few barbs, it'd give Louis time to catch his breath. Regroup. Stave off the inevitable. But Lestat doesn't take the bait, and Louis comes, breaks apart, head snapping back against the seat.

Pulling on Lestat's hair, not to push him down but the urge him up. Unconscious desire, begging Lestat up to him.
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[personal profile] divorcing 2025-07-28 04:50 am (UTC)(link)
Strange, how Lestat remains draped over him, but the sensation of being pinned has gone. Hazy awareness of Lestat's strength, how he wields it, how he hid it, drifts through Louis' mind.

A shade of a scowl on his face as Lestat speaks. Louis feels wrung out, but not so much so that he doesn't find some annoyance for this needling.

He kisses Lestat anyway.

Bad form to encourage him, but Louis has made so many bad decisions. He can make one more. He can kiss Lestat properly, no bruising or snarling. He licks into his mouth, tastes all that they've done together. Indulges. Kisses him and kisses him and kisses him. Can think of no compelling reason to stop.
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[personal profile] divorcing 2025-07-28 05:14 am (UTC)(link)
Are they done arguing?

Yes. No.

Never, really.

But the fight drains out of Louis as they kiss. Lestat fits in alongside and over him just as he always has, and the seat is narrow but so was their coffin once. They find balance. Louis' hand tangles more fully into Lestat's hair, cupping his skull, keeping him close.

Their hearts beat together, perfectly synced through the rise and now the fall of their clash.

Louis drinks the sound Lestat makes. Wants to hear another, hear it again. He can taste himself, his blood, some chemical, in Lestat's mouth. Licks after all of it, trading heavy breaths back and forth.

It's been such a long time. But Louis falls into him just the same. He keeps Lestat caught close.

If they keep kissing, maybe they simply never have to talk about anything at all ever again.
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[personal profile] divorcing 2025-07-28 10:17 am (UTC)(link)
Stings all the more for it, gentle instead of accusatory, prompting for an answer Louis doesn't have.

What is he doing?

A question striking at the moment, prompting immediate self examination of their entanglement, Louis' part in it.

Louis' expression flickers, hurt, lost, and then shutters. Feels caught out. It loosens his grip, but doesn't drop his hands from where they rest on Lestat's body, tangle in his hair.

"What am I doing?" He repeats, quieter, gathering tension is his body signaling movement. A fresh bid for freedom, perhaps more successful this time despite their states of relative undress.
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[personal profile] divorcing 2025-07-28 11:42 am (UTC)(link)
Disorienting.

The question is broad, open-ended. Felt directed at the immediate, the kiss, the way they are wrapped in each other but—

Louis watches him for long moments, Lestat shifting his weight and Louis' grip tightening slightly in response. Louis should go. He shouldn't have done any of this.

The urge to draw Lestat back down into a kiss is hard to ignore. Easier when they aren't talking.

"What are you talking about, Lestat?"

Direct. They've fallen into this trap before. Louis skirts it this time, or at least, attempts to.

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[personal profile] divorcing 2025-07-28 12:24 pm (UTC)(link)
"You ain't a hobby."

Nettled. Frustration creeping back, despite the good work Lestat had done in banishing it from his body. It's always been the way. Lestat capable of both, plucking at his emotions effortlessly. A gift of knowing him so well.

"This isn't part of anything else."

Just maybe something they shouldn't have done. A car crash on its own merits. Lestat has hooked a finger through one of the harness straps and Louis likes it so much, even as he is annoyed by the questions and Lestat's near accusations.

Wants to ask, Do you really think that? but knows the answer wouldn't do him any good.
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[personal profile] divorcing 2025-07-28 10:25 pm (UTC)(link)
A sense of having tread out onto delicate ground. Louis hadn't meant to talk about these things with Lestat. They have enough worries between them, and there have been moments where Louis had the sense Lestat was—

Fragile.

Not a word he might have applied in New Orleans. Not so readily, at least.

He sighs, letting his eyes drift to the ceiling even as his fingers play at the ends of Lestat's hair. Unconscious habit; he had so often practiced similar touches in their coffin.

"Not every night," he stipulates, before admitting: "But often enough. I usually get it taken care of before I meet you."

Regrettable that this particular group hadn't felt inclined to follow the timetable.

"It wasn't supposed to interfere."

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