Lestat, back turned, chin tucked down to do up the fastenings of his trousers. Mouth pursing at this, trying to detect some note of displeasure. It seems you are and I'm glad. Is all of this easier, then, to know Lestat isn't miserable? A guiltless distance? What an indulgent imagining.
This thought doesn't travel far. Sparks, fails. If tonight proves anything, it's that he doesn't know what Louis wants, only what he doesn't.
"The interviews for my documentary are to begin in New Orleans," he says. A brisk change of topic, but also not: fun between concerts. He glances back at Louis as he moves to collect his choice of boots, tall heels, shining black, buckles. "I imagine you will wish to say hello to your friend."
A softening in Louis' face, in spite of all the tension, the little bits of hurt doled out over the course of their time in this room together. Daniel. Pleased, in spite of his own mixed feelings on the interviews, on what might come of them.
"I do," Louis answers. "It will be good to see him."
No word on when Louis has last seen Daniel. Unnecessary.
Unlike the addition of:
"But I would be in New Orleans regardless," is something Lestat should know, and Louis tells him to be certain he understands. "I made certain I'd be available to meet you there."
Again, a quiet kind of pleasure, far less weighty than how he is sure he would feel if Louis deemed it something he could miss. But these are the warm, little things that are fewer and far apart, and Lestat feels himself hold it close, this assurance. Something to look forward to, regardless of all else: a return to New Orleans, with Louis in it to make it whole again.
The sharp sounds of zippers, and Lestat stands up, a decent four inches taller than usual, encased in figure hugging tones of silver, glitter and shine. "Happy?" he asks, a sort of shorthand question the band tosses around to each other during recording. Applies it now to Louis, indicating himself.
In need of polish, but the chosen outfit fits nicely.
An interesting word to put to Louis in this moment.
Happy. Is he happy?
Louis has to reign himself back in, narrow his thought down to just this moment, just Lestat's hands sweeping up and down to frame their combined handiwork. Is Louis happy with Lestat, as he appears now?
Yes. No. (He wants to strip the outfit back off. He wants to pin Lestat down onto the floor.) Louis crosses to him, touches the high collar, draws fingers down the spangled bodysuit, skims fingertips across exposed hipbones. Breathes out. Lestat, taller than him now. Beautiful.
Lestat might issue some complaint about all of this touching, what it does to him, if he did not desperately want Louis to continue to feel free to do so.
Holds his breath under the skimming of fingers down his chest, around to his hips. Head tilting briefly back to accuse the ceiling of some offense before Louis pulls back into focus. "Merci," he says, for Louis saying the only thing there is to say.
Hands coming up, fingers dancing lightly down Louis' jaw on either side. "In what section will you be watching me from?"
Despite 30 hours of no sleep at all, the various mood altering chemicals keeping his brain active enough to stay on his feet, the internal collapse of feeling himself being held at homoerotic arm's length from the love of his unlife, only half-fucked and running about twenty-five minutes behind schedule, Louis says he will be on the floor and Lestat's expression lights up.
Amusement, yes, for Louis to want to wade into the indignity of the mass audience, but also honest delight, and even more so. Louis close, Louis dancing, Louis having dressed up for the occasion, he sees now.
"Really," he says, hands settling warmer where his fingers had lingered. "Then I shall remember to look for you."
How had Louis forgotten the way Lestat tended to light up for even the littlest things? Familiar now, but Louis doesn't know if he would have remembered it before this moment.
He doesn't want to make Lestat tell him to leave.
Louis takes his face in his hands, smiling a little in response to the look on Lestat's face. Draws him in to kiss his cheek, a stolen liberty before their parting.
"Give me your best," Louis tells him, a minor challenge. Inconsequential. Louis doesn't think Lestat gives anything less than his best any time he is performing. "I came for a show."
He came for Lestat. The show is just—
It is the means by which Louis can excuse his presence. Wedge himself into the sphere of Lestat's life for a night or two. His fingers stroke lightly across Lestat's cheeks before Louis lets go, steps backwards towards the door.
Perhaps one day when they come together again like this, Lestat will feel something less than thirty thousand different emotions over the course of the meeting, each one as intense as the other. But it is nice that as they part, it is something like elation, affection. The drugs help, probably, as this warmth flushes out of his system the tangled, fretful feelings he'd been tending to prior.
Finally, they part. A man with a clipboard will guide Louis away. Lestat hauls his assistants in from the band's room so they can make something of his hair and makeup. A rare occurrence, but he has little time left, and he wishes to give Louis his best.
Forty minutes past when the show was set to begin—
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Lestat, back turned, chin tucked down to do up the fastenings of his trousers. Mouth pursing at this, trying to detect some note of displeasure. It seems you are and I'm glad. Is all of this easier, then, to know Lestat isn't miserable? A guiltless distance? What an indulgent imagining.
This thought doesn't travel far. Sparks, fails. If tonight proves anything, it's that he doesn't know what Louis wants, only what he doesn't.
"The interviews for my documentary are to begin in New Orleans," he says. A brisk change of topic, but also not: fun between concerts. He glances back at Louis as he moves to collect his choice of boots, tall heels, shining black, buckles. "I imagine you will wish to say hello to your friend."
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"I do," Louis answers. "It will be good to see him."
No word on when Louis has last seen Daniel. Unnecessary.
Unlike the addition of:
"But I would be in New Orleans regardless," is something Lestat should know, and Louis tells him to be certain he understands. "I made certain I'd be available to meet you there."
Their home. Of course Louis meant to be present.
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Again, a quiet kind of pleasure, far less weighty than how he is sure he would feel if Louis deemed it something he could miss. But these are the warm, little things that are fewer and far apart, and Lestat feels himself hold it close, this assurance. Something to look forward to, regardless of all else: a return to New Orleans, with Louis in it to make it whole again.
The sharp sounds of zippers, and Lestat stands up, a decent four inches taller than usual, encased in figure hugging tones of silver, glitter and shine. "Happy?" he asks, a sort of shorthand question the band tosses around to each other during recording. Applies it now to Louis, indicating himself.
In need of polish, but the chosen outfit fits nicely.
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An interesting word to put to Louis in this moment.
Happy. Is he happy?
Louis has to reign himself back in, narrow his thought down to just this moment, just Lestat's hands sweeping up and down to frame their combined handiwork. Is Louis happy with Lestat, as he appears now?
Yes. No. (He wants to strip the outfit back off. He wants to pin Lestat down onto the floor.) Louis crosses to him, touches the high collar, draws fingers down the spangled bodysuit, skims fingertips across exposed hipbones. Breathes out. Lestat, taller than him now. Beautiful.
"Yes," Louis tells him. "Lovely."
The right thing to say. The only thing to say.
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Holds his breath under the skimming of fingers down his chest, around to his hips. Head tilting briefly back to accuse the ceiling of some offense before Louis pulls back into focus. "Merci," he says, for Louis saying the only thing there is to say.
Hands coming up, fingers dancing lightly down Louis' jaw on either side. "In what section will you be watching me from?"
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"I'll be on the floor," he admits. There is a lovely private VIP section Louis has access too. Maybe he'll eventually retreat there, but to start—
"I want to be close, and feel how much they adore you. Your fans."
Louis wants to dance. He hasn't done so much dancing in the fifty years since San Francisco.
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Amusement, yes, for Louis to want to wade into the indignity of the mass audience, but also honest delight, and even more so. Louis close, Louis dancing, Louis having dressed up for the occasion, he sees now.
"Really," he says, hands settling warmer where his fingers had lingered. "Then I shall remember to look for you."
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He doesn't want to make Lestat tell him to leave.
Louis takes his face in his hands, smiling a little in response to the look on Lestat's face. Draws him in to kiss his cheek, a stolen liberty before their parting.
"Give me your best," Louis tells him, a minor challenge. Inconsequential. Louis doesn't think Lestat gives anything less than his best any time he is performing. "I came for a show."
He came for Lestat. The show is just—
It is the means by which Louis can excuse his presence. Wedge himself into the sphere of Lestat's life for a night or two. His fingers stroke lightly across Lestat's cheeks before Louis lets go, steps backwards towards the door.
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Finally, they part. A man with a clipboard will guide Louis away. Lestat hauls his assistants in from the band's room so they can make something of his hair and makeup. A rare occurrence, but he has little time left, and he wishes to give Louis his best.
Forty minutes past when the show was set to begin—
Well, he can make it worth the wait.