Louis falls out of pace, allows Lestat to read slightly ahead. Observes him in his finery, cinched in a lovely corset, draped in gossamer fabric, loose curls falling over his shoulders as he walks along the stone, against this backdrop.
1790. Lestat leaving, alone. The memory of apples, grown nearby.
"Was this home?" Louis asks, softly. A little startled by the possibility that they could be. That the building has been preserved as it was.
Once a little ways ahead, Lestat pivots back to face him, a characteristically smooth twirl of motion. "Yes," simply, and clearly pleased with himself. For startling Louis, perhaps, for surprising him, for luring him. Gifting him, he would like to think. No one else will know this thing. Not even the ones who believe in his being a vampire.
Even for them, there's a certain amount of cognizant dissonance that would need to be overcome. Two and a half centuries ago is a long time, for mortals. He is, personally, older than the legal presence of the United States of America. And you would imagine that castles would have crumbled.
But what's two and a half centuries to a castle that has stood since the 7th century? The stone is sure, the foundations deep. According to this castle, it has been barely any time at all since he left.
"Miserable, isn't it? In all its loveliness. I assure you it was just as dour then as it is now."
He's not mortal, Louis had cautioned Claudia, a mere three decades of vampiric life to his name. You threaten a life which will endure till the end of the world.
On this high wall, watching Lestat spin to face him, Louis considers their respective ages. Lestat, old enough to have walked through this place and called it home. This castle, ancient even then. Time, moving around them, flowing onwards and onwards while they stand still.
"Was it home?" carries a different meaning as Louis closes the distance between them.
Lestat had lived here, yes. But home is bigger than a building. Needs more than four walls, a roof overhead. Needs something Louis suspects might have been absent.
Lestat has a hand resting on the wall's edge, an angled lean, as if ever constantly aware of the shape and silhouette he makes when being looked at. Because he is, probably, on some instinctive level. And finds that flitting around a party, leading the way through stone halls, allowing his bandmate to intervene, has been a good armor up until this point.
Here, he finds himself more aware than ever of Louis. His presence, his heart beat, his gaze. The lovely things he is wearing, the way he does his hair now. The texture of his voice.
He would like to ask him what he sees, now. If Lestat is now someone considerably changed since he found him in New Orleans. An improvement.
A little gesture from his free hand, before bringing it up to toy with one of the many pearl strands dangling off his neck. "It was all there was," is partways a no. "It was my world, first, before I discovered all that lay beyond it."
It's not a home when you find yourself trapped there. Louis, Lestat is sure, would know.
"But, I wanted to come and pay my respects. A new beginning, for a third time."
Yes, Lestat looks very good. Impossibly good. A temptation to do something foolish, like put his hand on Lestat's absurdly cinched waist, comes and goes. Nudged away, adhering to all the sensible things Louis has resolved as he comes to a stop alongside Lestat.
His study doesn't ease. He is looking. Admiring, even as his eyes search Lestat's face. Takes up all these pieces Lestat offers him, holding them close to the chest.
A moment's consideration, before Louis permits them to be drawn towards the present. The music, the tour. A third new beginning, Lestat reintroducing himself to the world. The fretful twist in his chest at all things a new beginning may well bring. (Beautiful bandmates, adoring mortals.)
"Third times the charm," is meant to lighten the conversation, even though Louis is still thinking of Lestat in this place. Lestat, who remembers the taste of apples. "You ready for it all? Your tour?"
The gold Louis is wearing is tempting. Tempting to slip his fingers beneath the buckle of his belt. To stroke the embroidery, or kiss his eyelids so that gold shimmer comes away on his lips. These thoughts, fleeting, impulsive, perfectly ordinary. Of course Louis is beautiful. Of course Lestat wants him.
And does not deserve him. At third time's a charm, it's kind of an awful twist of humour, and Lestat's eyes wrinkle with mirth for it. A new life, a new opportunity to make a mess of it. He is certain he will. He is determined to enjoy it, this time.
"Yes," he says, a little hair toss following his look off past Louis' shoulder. "I feel decades too late, really, but. At least the world doesn't know what it wants anymore. Easier to give them whatever it is you have."
A little shrug, ruffled sleeves shivering with the movement. "The book has been a wonderful help, of course. You know, by the time we descend, everyone here will know who you are."
"How you figure that?" Louis says, a little teasing, as he rests elbows on the stone. Eyes still angled towards Lestat, mouth slanting into a smile. "They not gonna assume I'm just one of your favorites for the night?"
Maybe skirting a little away from discussion of the book. Avoiding the reality that Louis has not read it. Isn't certain he ever will.
Louis, having gone so long with a complete absence of presence in the world. A whisper, conducting business through comfortable intermediaries. Now, his name. His story. Their story. Daniel's book a bestseller, bringing with it more immediate things to deal with than mortal attention, but behind response of the vampire world there is still the overly invested mortals to consider. Comfortable anonymity is perhaps beyond him now.
Lestat considers him, considers whether this is a play at avoidance. They have acknowledged the book and have not discussed the book. It has gone noticed.
"When I met Cookie and her band," he says, "it's true I was drawn to their music. I wanted to learn the things they could teach me. We played together that same night. I told them what I was. I told them who I was. And did you know what they said?"
Is he angry? Hard to say. Anger does not snap at his tone, coldness doesn't ice his words, but there is a needling kind of sharpness to all this recounting, a prideful way of standing.
"They will know you are a vampire. That you were the love of my life."
Louis feels the way it lands, how it wedges behind the ribs. How it interrupts the steady thud of his heart. Pain blooms there, though maybe Louis has no right to it. No right to feel stung, when they are maintaining their friendship, their new acquaintance. When they are eighty years apart and companions no longer.
Still.
Were becomes splintered bone, a blossoming bruise. Nothing to do but feel it, and contain it.
A flex of a smile, before Louis looks away. Out into the distance, where apple trees once grew, where the idle conversation of those milling about far beneath them on the ground drifts up, indistinguishable murmurs.
"I see."
Measured in tone, these two words. Aware of the ground they tread towards. Lestat, inscrutable but sharp-toned. Louis, hurt. A combination that could very well teeter towards disaster.
Lestat makes a hasty study of Louis' profile. Shame, perhaps. Discomfort. None of it he sees, all of it he imagines. He shifts his posture as well, leaning to gaze out at the wilderness. Yes, still apple trees out there, he can scent it on the wind, fallen fruit, rotting on the forest floor. The grounds had fallen to disuse well before the wilds reclaimed it, well before Lestat left this place. The vineyards, untended, in need of replanting.
He will wander these halls and reflect on his beginnings and try to recall these things so that when Daniel Molloy sits across from him, camera and all, he won't be making any of it up. He thinks he should ask if Louis would like to accompany him, if he would listen. Thinks he has asked enough of him already.
Asks, instead, "Did you like my song?" A glance aside, a little smile. "The record I sent to you."
And so they step back from the edge of some kind of disaster.
Louis' gaze slants back. The hurt is still there, a second heartbeat in his chest, contained. Suppressed, pushed far enough aside that Louis can recover a fond smile. Offer it up, no hesitation.
"I did."
Unchanging, this. Louis' love of music, yes, but Lestat's in particular. He'd listened to it so many times, tracing the threads of the song back to their salon in New Orleans. The pieces of it that were intrinsically Lestat, even mingled and transformed by the progression of time.
"Liked the video too," Louis tells him, because of course he had sought it out. Sought that like he had unearthed the band's website, the series of articles announcing the tour. Louis doing his own research, to Daniel's great amusement.
Lestat can't help a smile for that, teeth set to bottom lip, a flash of affection that catches him off-guard. Presses it down again.
Good, that Louis liked it. And the video. This is what friends feel for each other's accomplishments. And he has spoken of it with Cookie, when she was in a mood to grant her limited human wisdom, that if he would like Louis in his life, happy and stable, than the rest way to do it is to maintain a friendship.
Had he imaginings of something like New Orleans again, dripping with water from the Mississippi, come to make good on the audacity of the gift? Perhaps. Little, petty, misbehaving imaginings. Ones that die like time lapsed flowers, withering.
But it is cute of Louis to have looked up the video.
"Good," he says. "You could hardly be expected to enjoy the tour if you hated it."
Talk of the book delayed, deferred, in favor of this.
Is it an easier topic? In some ways, yes. In others, Louis finds it extremely difficult.
But the difficulty doesn't matter. Lestat has been speaking of the tour since Louis found him. Louis is so pleased to see him, lucid and healthy, making good on what Louis had feared was only a delusion.
"Got that too," Louis tells him. "Your very kind arrangements for me."
Likes that. Likes Lestat's smile. Likes arrangements made for him, space in which Louis might fit himself into Lestat's new life.
"You know I've never hated anything you've composed."
Admittedly, they're a long ways from their companionship, and the kind of music Lestat had been playing then. But it's still his music.
Feels some anxious snarl of something, beneath constricting layers of velvet and lace, each of these mild mannered words like an irritant. If he allowed it, Lestat could follow that spiral, down into the depths where he can imagine Louis only ever liking his music, enjoying his career, a passing amusement of some non-serious nature that doesn't really pertain to him at all.
Well, the night is young.
"You will cross paths with your friend," he says, a hair toss, a casual look away. "Your vampiric biographer. He has agreed to direct the documentary."
The casual hair toss does not, actually, soften the absolute shock of this revelation.
And while Louis manages to blunt and contain most of the emotion, some fraction of it touches his expression. Surprise, eyebrows lifting as Louis turns more fully towards Lestat.
It would be absolutely absurd if this were a joke. Louis doesn't bother entertaining the possibility that Lestat is only kidding with him. Instead, he spends a moment trying to recall if it had ever been mentioned that Lestat intends to make a documentary. Had they spoken of it? Surely not. Surely Louis would have remembered?
"Daniel?" he questions, as if there's some other vampiric biographer in Louis' rolodex. "I hadn't realized you were in contact."
Lestat, behaving a little like he does not relish the ability to surprise Louis, like he did not notice. But maybe something knowing, once he looks back at him, in the smile that follows. "It is more of a, you know, my people contacting his people kind of arrangement. But it seems appropriate, doesn't it?"
There has been no talk of the documentary. Lestat had not been planning to share it with Louis, or anyone, this evening. But good plans never survive contact with the enemy.
"And as you have made a point to emphasise to the world entire, books aren't really my style."
Circling back to the book, which they should have a conversation about, Louis knows. Just not tonight, when Lestat is meant to be celebrating. It seems a poor moment to delve into the book, the circumstances in which Louis had spoken of all the things within it. That he hadn't read it, and why he doesn't wish to do so.
Which parts he regrets, and which parts he doesn't.
And he sees it, in Lestat's face. That he has been caught out in his reaction, and cannot quite begrudge Lestat whatever satisfaction he takes from it.
"I didn't know you wished to be interviewed," Louis says, and then amends, "To be interviewed so extensively."
Finding his footing by degrees. Admitting, "But there is no one better than Daniel, if you are set on the idea. And capable of convincing him to do his work on camera."
Which clearly has already been settled, so why is Louis even bothering rambling about it?
"He is, apparently, amenable to whatever form I feel my life story must take. And it is my preference that no one write it for me."
Lestat, once again, setting his focus on Louis. Piercing, drilling. Beneath them, the party continues. It will continue well into the night. They have all the time in the world. Secretly, of course, Lestat would stay here until sunrise.
"When you told yours," he says, "did you know what you would say? Or did he guide you down those paths?"
But more difficult to answer than Lestat maybe means it to be. Louis had changed within the course of the interview. His intentions, his hopes for the outcome, all of it evolving as he and Daniel sat together and sifted through what Louis could remember, how he remembered.
Excavated what he did not.
"I had an idea of what I would say, at the beginning," Louis answers, breaking the silence stretching out between them before Lestat could repeat himself, take offense at Louis' delay. This long moment where his focus turns inward, disappearing from this castle, drawn back to past days in Dubai. "I felt I knew what I was presenting to him, and that relaying all of it aloud would...order it, in my mind."
Would make it real. Would validate the meaning Louis had been guessing at, soothe the growing disquiet at the sense he was adrift, tucked away in his tower.
Though also: a small breath of laughter for guide.
Yes, Daniel had guided, but not so gently as the word might imply.
"Daniel saw beyond me. He pushed us into avenues I would not have considered on my own. I imagine he will do the same for you, if you let him."
Lestat is listening, including during the momentary silence where Louis is considering his answer. He has asked him a question as if seeking advice. He has asked him a question that will only give him a fragment of what he wants to know, when answered.
Aware of the plot twist. Of Armand's lies unveiled over the course of the story, of the kind of avenues Molloy has assisted in exploring. Aware that he owes the newly made fledgling some debt for his own personal reemergence into the world, for Louis' freedom of the things he did not know, could not remember.
Aware, also, that he only understands a part of it.
"Perhaps," he agrees. "I'm glad it was good for you."
See how gracious he can be? Hopefully, Louis is noticing.
No burdens whatsoever. They can stay light and free of each other. They can drift in and out of each others' lives like clouds.
Lestat smiles across at him, a pursed kind of expression, before he says, "And you have no apprehensions? No fears of what truths or contradictions I may introduce to the narrative?"
More teasing. Caught between wishing to know, and knowing Louis does not care. No care for what mortals think of him, of them, of Lestat. An admirable quality in a vampire who has chosen to live his life in a fake city in a big tower, away from it all.
Louis has behaved. He is the one who imposed this distance, this space between them. He is the one now who flouts it, reaching to link his fingers with Lestat's, straightening from his graceful slouch.
"No," he answers. "Wouldn't be fair of me to influence yours, since you ain't influenced mine."
It goes unspoken, who had exerted influence over Louis' interview.
But it's not the point. Louis' grip tightens, the smile he slants over to Lestat soft-edged and fond.
"I want you to say whatever it is you need to say. All your truths, all your contradictions. Don't hold any part of it back, especially not on my account."
Knowing that maybe Lestat would withhold. He always had, keeping his past out of Louis' reach. How little Louis knew of him, outside of their lives together. Impossible to say whether or not Lestat intended to maintain that in his documentary work with Daniel. He could easily manage it, if the goal was only to speak of what Louis had already divulged.
Something like holding his breath when Louis takes his hand. It's been decades and decades and his body remembers the instinct: here, Lestat might draw Louis in, or here, he would drift closer, or bring that hand up to his chest, his mouth. Ghosts of things.
Receives it all the same, fingers hooking, keeping, while gazing across at him and absorbing these things he says. How petty he feels, all at once, in the face of this gentle generousity, this fondness, all suffused soft into the tone of Louis' voice.
"And will you be listening?" is also familiar, a little tug in his tone to politely request attention, validation, flattery.
A question that Louis feels is very fair, even if the possibility of being told no is agonizing. What a test of his resolve, being asked to never listen to whatever it is Lestat confides to Daniel in the course of their work.
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
no subject
1790. Lestat leaving, alone. The memory of apples, grown nearby.
"Was this home?" Louis asks, softly. A little startled by the possibility that they could be. That the building has been preserved as it was.
no subject
Even for them, there's a certain amount of cognizant dissonance that would need to be overcome. Two and a half centuries ago is a long time, for mortals. He is, personally, older than the legal presence of the United States of America. And you would imagine that castles would have crumbled.
But what's two and a half centuries to a castle that has stood since the 7th century? The stone is sure, the foundations deep. According to this castle, it has been barely any time at all since he left.
"Miserable, isn't it? In all its loveliness. I assure you it was just as dour then as it is now."
no subject
On this high wall, watching Lestat spin to face him, Louis considers their respective ages. Lestat, old enough to have walked through this place and called it home. This castle, ancient even then. Time, moving around them, flowing onwards and onwards while they stand still.
"Was it home?" carries a different meaning as Louis closes the distance between them.
Lestat had lived here, yes. But home is bigger than a building. Needs more than four walls, a roof overhead. Needs something Louis suspects might have been absent.
no subject
Here, he finds himself more aware than ever of Louis. His presence, his heart beat, his gaze. The lovely things he is wearing, the way he does his hair now. The texture of his voice.
He would like to ask him what he sees, now. If Lestat is now someone considerably changed since he found him in New Orleans. An improvement.
A little gesture from his free hand, before bringing it up to toy with one of the many pearl strands dangling off his neck. "It was all there was," is partways a no. "It was my world, first, before I discovered all that lay beyond it."
It's not a home when you find yourself trapped there. Louis, Lestat is sure, would know.
"But, I wanted to come and pay my respects. A new beginning, for a third time."
no subject
His study doesn't ease. He is looking. Admiring, even as his eyes search Lestat's face. Takes up all these pieces Lestat offers him, holding them close to the chest.
A moment's consideration, before Louis permits them to be drawn towards the present. The music, the tour. A third new beginning, Lestat reintroducing himself to the world. The fretful twist in his chest at all things a new beginning may well bring. (Beautiful bandmates, adoring mortals.)
"Third times the charm," is meant to lighten the conversation, even though Louis is still thinking of Lestat in this place. Lestat, who remembers the taste of apples. "You ready for it all? Your tour?"
no subject
And does not deserve him. At third time's a charm, it's kind of an awful twist of humour, and Lestat's eyes wrinkle with mirth for it. A new life, a new opportunity to make a mess of it. He is certain he will. He is determined to enjoy it, this time.
"Yes," he says, a little hair toss following his look off past Louis' shoulder. "I feel decades too late, really, but. At least the world doesn't know what it wants anymore. Easier to give them whatever it is you have."
A little shrug, ruffled sleeves shivering with the movement. "The book has been a wonderful help, of course. You know, by the time we descend, everyone here will know who you are."
no subject
Maybe skirting a little away from discussion of the book. Avoiding the reality that Louis has not read it. Isn't certain he ever will.
Louis, having gone so long with a complete absence of presence in the world. A whisper, conducting business through comfortable intermediaries. Now, his name. His story. Their story. Daniel's book a bestseller, bringing with it more immediate things to deal with than mortal attention, but behind response of the vampire world there is still the overly invested mortals to consider. Comfortable anonymity is perhaps beyond him now.
no subject
Lestat considers him, considers whether this is a play at avoidance. They have acknowledged the book and have not discussed the book. It has gone noticed.
"When I met Cookie and her band," he says, "it's true I was drawn to their music. I wanted to learn the things they could teach me. We played together that same night. I told them what I was. I told them who I was. And did you know what they said?"
A tip of his head.
"Oh, Lestat, from that vampire book," a little flare of playacting. "How original, to pretend to be him. Dracula is so passé. And of course, I had no idea what they meant, and Alex gave me his copy. I read it in an evening. I vanished from them for a month. So yes, Louis de Pointe du Lac, Cookie knows who you are and will be sure to tell anyone who wishes to know where I am right now."
Is he angry? Hard to say. Anger does not snap at his tone, coldness doesn't ice his words, but there is a needling kind of sharpness to all this recounting, a prideful way of standing.
"They will know you are a vampire. That you were the love of my life."
no subject
A single word.
Were. Past tense.
Louis feels the way it lands, how it wedges behind the ribs. How it interrupts the steady thud of his heart. Pain blooms there, though maybe Louis has no right to it. No right to feel stung, when they are maintaining their friendship, their new acquaintance. When they are eighty years apart and companions no longer.
Still.
Were becomes splintered bone, a blossoming bruise. Nothing to do but feel it, and contain it.
A flex of a smile, before Louis looks away. Out into the distance, where apple trees once grew, where the idle conversation of those milling about far beneath them on the ground drifts up, indistinguishable murmurs.
"I see."
Measured in tone, these two words. Aware of the ground they tread towards. Lestat, inscrutable but sharp-toned. Louis, hurt. A combination that could very well teeter towards disaster.
no subject
Lestat makes a hasty study of Louis' profile. Shame, perhaps. Discomfort. None of it he sees, all of it he imagines. He shifts his posture as well, leaning to gaze out at the wilderness. Yes, still apple trees out there, he can scent it on the wind, fallen fruit, rotting on the forest floor. The grounds had fallen to disuse well before the wilds reclaimed it, well before Lestat left this place. The vineyards, untended, in need of replanting.
He will wander these halls and reflect on his beginnings and try to recall these things so that when Daniel Molloy sits across from him, camera and all, he won't be making any of it up. He thinks he should ask if Louis would like to accompany him, if he would listen. Thinks he has asked enough of him already.
Asks, instead, "Did you like my song?" A glance aside, a little smile. "The record I sent to you."
no subject
Louis' gaze slants back. The hurt is still there, a second heartbeat in his chest, contained. Suppressed, pushed far enough aside that Louis can recover a fond smile. Offer it up, no hesitation.
"I did."
Unchanging, this. Louis' love of music, yes, but Lestat's in particular. He'd listened to it so many times, tracing the threads of the song back to their salon in New Orleans. The pieces of it that were intrinsically Lestat, even mingled and transformed by the progression of time.
"Liked the video too," Louis tells him, because of course he had sought it out. Sought that like he had unearthed the band's website, the series of articles announcing the tour. Louis doing his own research, to Daniel's great amusement.
no subject
Good, that Louis liked it. And the video. This is what friends feel for each other's accomplishments. And he has spoken of it with Cookie, when she was in a mood to grant her limited human wisdom, that if he would like Louis in his life, happy and stable, than the rest way to do it is to maintain a friendship.
Had he imaginings of something like New Orleans again, dripping with water from the Mississippi, come to make good on the audacity of the gift? Perhaps. Little, petty, misbehaving imaginings. Ones that die like time lapsed flowers, withering.
But it is cute of Louis to have looked up the video.
"Good," he says. "You could hardly be expected to enjoy the tour if you hated it."
no subject
Is it an easier topic? In some ways, yes. In others, Louis finds it extremely difficult.
But the difficulty doesn't matter. Lestat has been speaking of the tour since Louis found him. Louis is so pleased to see him, lucid and healthy, making good on what Louis had feared was only a delusion.
"Got that too," Louis tells him. "Your very kind arrangements for me."
Likes that. Likes Lestat's smile. Likes arrangements made for him, space in which Louis might fit himself into Lestat's new life.
"You know I've never hated anything you've composed."
Admittedly, they're a long ways from their companionship, and the kind of music Lestat had been playing then. But it's still his music.
"I'm going to enjoy it. Your tour."
no subject
Feels some anxious snarl of something, beneath constricting layers of velvet and lace, each of these mild mannered words like an irritant. If he allowed it, Lestat could follow that spiral, down into the depths where he can imagine Louis only ever liking his music, enjoying his career, a passing amusement of some non-serious nature that doesn't really pertain to him at all.
Well, the night is young.
"You will cross paths with your friend," he says, a hair toss, a casual look away. "Your vampiric biographer. He has agreed to direct the documentary."
no subject
And while Louis manages to blunt and contain most of the emotion, some fraction of it touches his expression. Surprise, eyebrows lifting as Louis turns more fully towards Lestat.
It would be absolutely absurd if this were a joke. Louis doesn't bother entertaining the possibility that Lestat is only kidding with him. Instead, he spends a moment trying to recall if it had ever been mentioned that Lestat intends to make a documentary. Had they spoken of it? Surely not. Surely Louis would have remembered?
"Daniel?" he questions, as if there's some other vampiric biographer in Louis' rolodex. "I hadn't realized you were in contact."
no subject
Lestat, behaving a little like he does not relish the ability to surprise Louis, like he did not notice. But maybe something knowing, once he looks back at him, in the smile that follows. "It is more of a, you know, my people contacting his people kind of arrangement. But it seems appropriate, doesn't it?"
There has been no talk of the documentary. Lestat had not been planning to share it with Louis, or anyone, this evening. But good plans never survive contact with the enemy.
"And as you have made a point to emphasise to the world entire, books aren't really my style."
no subject
Which parts he regrets, and which parts he doesn't.
And he sees it, in Lestat's face. That he has been caught out in his reaction, and cannot quite begrudge Lestat whatever satisfaction he takes from it.
"I didn't know you wished to be interviewed," Louis says, and then amends, "To be interviewed so extensively."
Finding his footing by degrees. Admitting, "But there is no one better than Daniel, if you are set on the idea. And capable of convincing him to do his work on camera."
Which clearly has already been settled, so why is Louis even bothering rambling about it?
no subject
"He is, apparently, amenable to whatever form I feel my life story must take. And it is my preference that no one write it for me."
Lestat, once again, setting his focus on Louis. Piercing, drilling. Beneath them, the party continues. It will continue well into the night. They have all the time in the world. Secretly, of course, Lestat would stay here until sunrise.
"When you told yours," he says, "did you know what you would say? Or did he guide you down those paths?"
no subject
But more difficult to answer than Lestat maybe means it to be. Louis had changed within the course of the interview. His intentions, his hopes for the outcome, all of it evolving as he and Daniel sat together and sifted through what Louis could remember, how he remembered.
Excavated what he did not.
"I had an idea of what I would say, at the beginning," Louis answers, breaking the silence stretching out between them before Lestat could repeat himself, take offense at Louis' delay. This long moment where his focus turns inward, disappearing from this castle, drawn back to past days in Dubai. "I felt I knew what I was presenting to him, and that relaying all of it aloud would...order it, in my mind."
Would make it real. Would validate the meaning Louis had been guessing at, soothe the growing disquiet at the sense he was adrift, tucked away in his tower.
Though also: a small breath of laughter for guide.
Yes, Daniel had guided, but not so gently as the word might imply.
"Daniel saw beyond me. He pushed us into avenues I would not have considered on my own. I imagine he will do the same for you, if you let him."
no subject
Aware of the plot twist. Of Armand's lies unveiled over the course of the story, of the kind of avenues Molloy has assisted in exploring. Aware that he owes the newly made fledgling some debt for his own personal reemergence into the world, for Louis' freedom of the things he did not know, could not remember.
Aware, also, that he only understands a part of it.
"Perhaps," he agrees. "I'm glad it was good for you."
See how gracious he can be? Hopefully, Louis is noticing.
no subject
Louis has had some time to consider how seamless Armand's work to be. How Daniel, as skilled as he is, is not all-seeing.
But these are not the kinds of existential fears to burden Lestat with.
Louis tips his head back to him, a private little smile, rueful and tender both.
"I hope it is good for you," is what he offers. "I hope it is what you wish it to be."
And if he is envious of Daniel for receiving all that Lestat might say of his past—
That too is not something to burden Lestat with.
no subject
Lestat smiles across at him, a pursed kind of expression, before he says, "And you have no apprehensions? No fears of what truths or contradictions I may introduce to the narrative?"
More teasing. Caught between wishing to know, and knowing Louis does not care. No care for what mortals think of him, of them, of Lestat. An admirable quality in a vampire who has chosen to live his life in a fake city in a big tower, away from it all.
Must be nice.
no subject
"No," he answers. "Wouldn't be fair of me to influence yours, since you ain't influenced mine."
It goes unspoken, who had exerted influence over Louis' interview.
But it's not the point. Louis' grip tightens, the smile he slants over to Lestat soft-edged and fond.
"I want you to say whatever it is you need to say. All your truths, all your contradictions. Don't hold any part of it back, especially not on my account."
Knowing that maybe Lestat would withhold. He always had, keeping his past out of Louis' reach. How little Louis knew of him, outside of their lives together. Impossible to say whether or not Lestat intended to maintain that in his documentary work with Daniel. He could easily manage it, if the goal was only to speak of what Louis had already divulged.
no subject
Receives it all the same, fingers hooking, keeping, while gazing across at him and absorbing these things he says. How petty he feels, all at once, in the face of this gentle generousity, this fondness, all suffused soft into the tone of Louis' voice.
"And will you be listening?" is also familiar, a little tug in his tone to politely request attention, validation, flattery.
no subject
A question that Louis feels is very fair, even if the possibility of being told no is agonizing. What a test of his resolve, being asked to never listen to whatever it is Lestat confides to Daniel in the course of their work.
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)