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lestat de lioncourt. ([personal profile] damnedest) wrote2034-06-28 12:42 pm
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[personal profile] followups 2024-07-10 10:22 pm (UTC)(link)
He'd prodded Louis about needing to kill humans to survive. Intentional jabs and challenges meant to provoke, even though he bore the scars of success on his throat, the same place he know sinks fangs into on this undeserving person. A real person, with a life, with relatives, friends, hobbies, opinions. It's important to understand an interview subject, and Louis, no matter what else, was still that. Daniel needed to see what would be defensiveness and what would be pride. What's murder? What's an assault? What's a donation?

Daniel has dedicated hours to the thought experiment of legality. If vampires become a protected class, recognized, what cases might the courts hear? What soulless arguments will be brought up, trying to justify heinous mortal crimes as biological imperatives?

Interesting. Curious. Worrying. Yet all of it fades as soon as he sinks his teeth (his fangs, the feeling of those manifesting is still surreal, but good) into something he can eat. It's better than drugs, better than alcohol or any food; he does not miss human food, does not miss delicate sweetness, indulgent over-salted meals, nothing savory or tart. Daniel liked bitter, sour things, enjoyed the ache in his mouth, and blood from a living human makes the memories of all of his favorites dull and bland.

A hitch, a scream. The man claws, says, Why, what the fuck, I'll kill you, but it's thin and gurgling by the end. Two monstrous, landwalking remoras, draining blood faster than a human heart can keep up with. Daniel feels his life, impressions of it, and the professional part of him can't help but look even as he endeavors to let it pass by unremarked on.

Every time. He drinks, and the difference between before and after a single meal is as stark as before and after death. Everything is better to a degree he has no words for. The man twitches as he tries to grapple, but his movements are weak, and he just bats at the gear shift, at Lestat, flinching soft in Daniel's grasp; gentle nothingness.
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[personal profile] followups 2024-07-11 02:30 am (UTC)(link)
It is intimate. With the victim, with the other participant. Daniel has recklessly allowed himself to be an open book to Lestat, but in this, he's got enough awareness to have preemptively pulled a curtain over whether or not he's done this before, and with who. A very short list of candidates, and he's going to try his best not to walk them over any surprise land mines, given his habit of lobbing hand grenades as it is.

There is pleasure in feeling like the sole hunter. There is pleasure in finding kinship, particularly in something so difficult to understand. The elation is bonding.

He drinks with both the bottomless hunger of any old fledgling and the pointed, deliberate indulgence of an addiction connoisseur. He knows which expensive whiskeys are for sipping slowly out of a large globe class, and which beers are for knocking back in a breathless chug for applause.

When he stops it's because the human is actively dying, and the dregs, while still delicious, would take effort along the lines of holding the man upside down to encourage better bloodflow. And who has time for that? Not a couple of vampires who still have to dispose of this guy. Daniel sits back, hand still clasped against their victim's arm. A huff of an exhale, a deep, shaking inhale, and he rubs his face. Motor oil and blood leave a stain of dark black-red against mottled white hair.

Well. He had been out looking for dinner. So this all works.

Daniel looks at Lestat, and raises his eyebrows.
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[personal profile] followups 2024-07-11 07:17 am (UTC)(link)
It is not like sex. But it is more like sex than other things that aren't sex. And thus it's kind of weird, really, even in the giddy aftermath. An alarm bell rings way back in a far corner of Daniel's mind, telling him that the request to talk to Louis is inevitable as the sun coming up in eight hours, but he swipes to 'snooze' on that. Out of practicality, of course. One hurdle at a time.

Current hurdle: literal. Daniel crawls up into the driver's seat, which is not a graceful affair, but one he manages with all the ease of a bendy teenager. The man was shorter, and he has to pull the lever to scoot the chair back. Thunk, comically timed with the trunk closing.

Yet another phone. This one is unlocked, which is charming in its idiocy. Daniel is able to factory reset it before he turns it off.

"These are worth more than most cars," he says to Lestat once he's back in, gesturing with the phone. An FYI, one old guy to another. Most people don't even check for cash, these days, and almost nobody carries any. His own (real) phone is back in his hotel room, connected to bundled wifi, running a playlist of podcasts and dutifully collecting messages and pinging off nearby cell towers. The cheap emergency burner shoved in a pocket isn't worth detailing, but it, like the ones harvested tonight, is turned off.

"How do you feel about a scenic back roads drive? There's probably enough gas in here to make it to a decent dump spot without anything catching fire."

The popped spark plugs. It'll run, but they are sitting in a thrilling ticking time bomb.
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[personal profile] followups 2024-07-12 02:09 am (UTC)(link)
And away they go, in a car that is hopefully not going to immediately burn up. Fitting soundtrack notes.

"Just something I keep in mind if lunch needs to look like a mugging."

Daniel is worse than a guy who watches too much true crime on YouTube, because Daniel is a guy whose work has overlapped with actual real life true crime, who has cracked more than one murder case entirely by accident in the course of investigating other things. Inconsequential obstacles that are now teaching moments he can look back on from the other side.

"My career might be toast," he laughs. "But the money is absurd. Easy to see the appeal of selling out, all of a sudden."

Though of course he hasn't. It's all real. The text, the subtext, the invisible words between lines. A shock for humans to consider vampires, and a shock for vampires to consider the violation of every fucking Great Law— to say nothing of the gossip. The drama of the Paris coven, finally exposed, bleached bones and sin and all.

"What do you think the odds are that the losers you saved me from were the only ones motivated enough to actually try something?"
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[personal profile] followups 2024-07-12 08:50 am (UTC)(link)
"Yeah, talk radio's definitely more mad at him than me." A glance in the rear view mirror, eye contact between two pairs of uncanny undead blue eyes. "Louis says he'll be fine..."

But.

Daniel shrugs. It doesn't take telepathy to tell he's concerned about his friend, but telepathy probably helps. An echo of a memory, hearing Louis broadcast his fucking address to every vampire (except one) on the planet, Daniel groaning and dragging his hands down his face over the body of some greasy nobody he'd eaten for a post-interview brunch. Exasperated, concerned, wryly fond.

There are doors in his mind that are closed. His daughters, the incident of his turning, a sectioned off dark corner that might as well be iron gates of hell with ARMAND scribbled in them on by some beast's wild clawing. January 17th 1972, and January 8th, and 9th, and 10th, and 11th...

And yet, and awareness. Sensitivity and deftness born no doubt of transference from an ancient, butthurt power. Daniel is aware that Lestat is peeking, can sense it like feeling someone reading over his shoulder. But he maintains that openness because he thinks it is, frankly, only fair. Louis and Armand practically dissected Lestat in front of Daniel. Twice. And then Daniel went and made millions off his love story.

"I'm not much of an arrangements guy. I want to know what, and who's coming."
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[personal profile] followups 2024-07-13 02:37 am (UTC)(link)
"Mm. And even if he can take on every single person with the balls to accept the challenge, it's not going to be great for his mental health."

Maybe it'll be satisfying. Louis is clearly spoiling for a fight, looking to vent anger and dole out retribution. It's not just Armand that wronged him, but all of vampire society. Great Laws and covens and the inability to simply exist. Don't record any information and leave new converts in the fucking dark (ha ha), make the punishment for infractions death and don't give any leeway to the ignorant, do weird Jesus shit, do weird theater shit.

But spiraling is never a good idea, and Daniel has seen first hand what happens when Louis gets too close to the edge.

"I've been working on identifying some of the angriest voices in the night. One could be laying dead back in that alley you gallantly swept me out of, but the odds seem low."
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[personal profile] followups 2024-07-14 12:22 pm (UTC)(link)
"My maker—"

The barest hitch there in with the emphasis. Parts not being adept at such terminology yet, with the cognitive dissonance of referring to someone who looks so much younger as being stationed in hierarchy far above him, parts clear (complicated) resentment. He finds himself wary, too, of Lestat's judgment and - perversely - exposing Armand to critique. It's easier to bump artlessly against the subject with Louis. The permanent but elastic tether of trauma bonding is forgiving.

"My maker." Trying again. Better. "Minds his own business."

Even absent, a silk-wrapped nail bomb. Daniel's eyes have shifted like a kitschy 90s mood ring, uncanny blue to familiar-horrible amber. He focuses on driving.

"What's the deal with covens and all the Satan junk? Really. I refuse to believe vampirism just makes people dumber."
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[personal profile] followups 2024-07-15 01:28 am (UTC)(link)
It was a lot. From 1973 til now, it's been a lot, and he's only recently remembered. Still processing. Daniel can't imagine that how he feels about it all today will be how he feels about it all in a hundred years.

It's fine. If he's a little off about it, whatever. Posting through it.

(Eating people through it.)

"The logic," and he draws circles in the air with his index finger, lazily, "doesn't work for me, even if it's just superstition. How can you believe you're damned, if your laws come from the Devil? First he's the warden of God's prison, now he's ordaining codes of conduct to terrestrial demons? But none of that's ever made sense to me in the first place. To believe in God is to believe God is an idiot, and what's the point."

Perhaps a little philosophizing can be forgiven (hah), seeing as he hasn't had a chance to do much of it quite like this. They are near the woods now, and Daniel is careful in his offroad navigation. This junker wasn't made for it even when it was new. An adventure!

"Our origins. Do you know much about it?"

'Akasha' did not make it into the final draft of the book. Daniel had gathered little bits and pieces, but between Louis' disinterest, Armand's silence, and Talamasca's limited intel, he just wasn't left with enough to warrant its inclusion.
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[personal profile] followups 2024-07-15 05:44 am (UTC)(link)
"I'm not recording," he says, easy banter. "And even if I was, I have an immaculate record of protecting sources who ask to remain confidential."

Too bad about so much of Lestat's life going out without his permission, but how would he say it, c'est la vie, and

"Did you ever see 'Rashomon'?"

There's one sure fire way to set the record straight, and that would be holding the second book hostage with his own interview. Regardless, they're doing something else at this moment. Daniel would prefer all on the record discussions happen while he isn't actively committing any crimes.

Thunkthunk, the car rattles.

"Damn. Alright, well, we're pretty close." He can hear the river in a way a human can't. He can hear something else, too, maybe a person? But distant enough that their paths hopefully don't cross. Daniel lets the car trundle to a stop, foot on the brake while he shifts it into neutral. It's get out and push from here. "Got any more of those?"

Cigarettes, he means.
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[personal profile] followups 2024-07-17 04:38 am (UTC)(link)
He lights a cigarette the old fashioned way. If Daniel knows the fire gift, he's keep it to himself. (Or maybe he just doesn't want to slip on a banana peel right away.)

"Rashomon," getting a grip on the back of the car, "is a movie about a thing that happens, and the different perspectives it's told from, none of which are the same. It's different than an 'unreliable narrator', because for real people outside of literary devices, perspective is truth."

Push, push. The car trundles along, like it weighs as much is a bicycle.

"And of course, an unreliable narrator is different than a liar."

Everything locked away in his head, but imperfectly: impossible, when he thinks of it, not to see in crystal clear HD 4k, every detail permanently burned into his brain with vicious triumph, the look of devastation and terror on Armand's face the moment he realized that Daniel knew, and that Louis was going to believe him.

"What's my point, anyway. I just mean— maybe there'll be a sequel, if there's anything else to add. Or maybe I'll get so addicted to money that I'll just make some shit up."

Yeah right. Daniel used Lestat like a grenade and pulled the pin while maintaining eye contact. The fear-adrenaline-victory rush of getting to the truest, least kaleidoscoped version of the truth is better than any drug. On the record or off it, he's always going to ask.
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[personal profile] followups 2024-07-18 01:18 am (UTC)(link)
Daniel has learned that everything in life is ridiculous. Drugs, sex, his job, and now, vampires. This is perfect, actually. Even as the car hits a downed log and Daniel has to walk around to lift the front bumper up. This is a blood-soaked cartoon.

"The best role in any story is always the villain," he says. It's not an insult or an accusation, and hopefully he's not walking out onto a lake covered in deceptively thin ice by traversing this path. "Especially if you can sympathize with him. You got the good part. I tried for it in my own autobiography, and just came out tacky and too self-aware."

But it sold. And Louis liked it. (Why does that matter? Ah, well.)

"Our origins, its blood. 'Akasha'?" Back to pushing. (The car, the subject.) "An old Sanskrit word applied to cosmology, the thing that makes space and room for existence. Hard for cosmology to bleed, so I'm guessing that's an actual name."
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[personal profile] followups 2024-07-20 03:37 am (UTC)(link)
Sympathy, mystique, revulsion, romance. A seductive monster that readers are as terrified of as obsessed with. Lestat, before taking his first step towards musical stardom, has a fandom.

Which may end up being the worst thing Daniel's ever done! Oopsy.

"Do you think she'd make a good interview subject?"

Probably not. Armand is the oldest vampire Daniel has interacted with (and that Louis has interacted with, and that Talamasca has ever interacted with), and he was a miserable pain in the ass to wring anything out of. Inhuman in a way Louis and Lestat aren't, yet. What must someone his distant senior be like? Alien beyond Daniel's comprehension?

He's curious, of course. What must that be like.

"I'd just like to know. It's all been a bit like falling into another dimension."

They're near the water, now. Daniel takes a moment to look out into the dark, wide river, and is still a little surprised at just how much he can make out. Assessing the best angle to send it in towards the depths.

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